Alienating Those I Love Poem by layla joseph

After all the suffering and pain
After all the times they stood by me
After everything is done and said
In the very end im all alone

All alone with my suffering and pain
All alone to face the new day
All alone when I need them the most
All alone just wanting to die

Its all my doing iv pushed them away
Iv made them leave
And I know longer know why
But this feeling just swamps me

engulfs me in this self pity
Making it difficult to live
Difficult to let others help
And in the end iv made myself alone

Pushed everyone away
Subconsciously decided to with draw
From the people that I love from the only ones that care
And alienated those that I have lent on

Those who have supported me so far
And have helped me survive this long
But now there is no more they can do
As I can no longer let them help me
Whether I want them to or not