Alone Poem by bikram baniya

the emptiness that i feel, the heavy heart that i carry.
the isolation that i live with, sometime its little too scary.
the mask on my face hides the true story of my life.
the emotions that i feel sometime tends to collide.

then i lose hope, trust and faith and will to live.
she became close and left, she forget and i forgive.
i stay awake the entire night and wept till i could see the moon.
till the time she understands my feelings i'll be wrapped in cocoon.

she lives in my heart like a name engraved in stone.
i loved her in every possible way, and now i am left alone.
alone i walk, alone i talk, alone i cut and alone i stare.
alone i cry out loud, alone i scream and i wish u would hear.

i look at ur picture covered with blood dropped from my wrist.
and i try hard just to find a reason why do i exist? ? ?
u never took me more than a fren, that i did always know.
u never made a promise to stay, u never made any vow.

u never said u loved me too, but i had a little hope u would.
u never had feelings for me, and my feelings u never understood.
i never wanted to end our friendship, all i wished was to express my heart.
i knew it was coming, like a house of cards, we would fall apart.

sometime i wish i had the feelings hidden.
may be loving someone for me is forbidden.
scared, broken and hopeless i stand and i see them laughing.
i am burying my sadness and loneliness along with me inside the coffin.