But I Knew Poem by Leria Hawkins

But I Knew…
Date: November 21,2014

For me…love never fades quickly…

And when I see a heart that’s breaking
I am sadly reminded of you
Bringing fresh my own perpetual ache

But I’m letting go, sweetheart
Letting go the only way I know how
…with time and torment
with patience and everyday battles with my heart

I scrawl line, after line, after line…
I search the lost and lonely corners of my mind
Looking for the epiphany that will lead me to “the end”

I cast no fault, nor cling to blame
Because I knew, I knew…I most definitely, certainly knew
But I staunchly denied the truth

It’s clearly a case of wishful thinking
A need to believe that time changes minds
…that space alters long held beliefs

Because we are older, because we are wiser
Because life is change
Time, minds, and people change…right?

I sprinted into this self-imposed prison
…this house of mirrors and cruel head games
I pretended to be what I am not
…and daydreamed about living “that” life

But I knew…

It’s just one more thing, I strive to forget
But, I’ll never forget…
Instead, I push it to the deep recesses of my mind

I’ll kept the bottle corked, baby…the secret buried
…and I’ll keep the lines blurred
Written far, far away from my troubled eyes
And further still from this weary heart


Be still, my sweet, be silent and still
You have no worries…
...the cat is safely in the bag

But I knew, sweet lover…I always knew
…just as I’ve always known.

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