Complete, The Poem by Isunge Mwangase

I will never look up to the sky again
With my hands outstreched
And feel love shining on my face,
Today my breath only clasps
the doors of my throat
And is drawn back by forces I cannot fight,
Darling, you used to love me softly,
Now you wish to leave me gently,
Gliding through my soul where you once trod,
Saying that you have no choice
Yet this the one you have made
Oh, you also ask if I hate you?
Pity we cannot live a thousand years;
I would have shown you that my answer
Would still have been an unshakeable no,
I love you and love is a fixed thing,
It changes only to grow- never to wilt,
Therefore I can never hate you,
Even though you hurt me-
Even though you are hurting me,
It would be like killing myself,
For I have lived in you long
enough to become you.
But today I will bind myself
with a tourniquet
And inject myself with numbness,
So that perhaps if I feel no pain-
Even for a second,
I might feel as I did when you
loved me- complete.