Complicated Poem by Ashlee Pasowicz

I sit And Wonder If This Is Right,
I Think To Myself And Remember,
I Remember All The Pain Ive Been Given,
And The Pain I Have Gave To Others,
My Life Is Complicated,
Does He Know I Will Always Care,
I Will Be A Friend And Always Be There,
I Have Began Fading Away,
Lost And Confused On Where To Go,
Nothing To Help Me,
Nothing To Be Guided By,
Its So Hard Not To Cry,
I Have So Much Left To Say,
But No Words Will Escape,
Its Hurts To See Him,
It Hurts Knowing I Hurt Him,
I Realize That I Dont Care Anymore,
I Am Who I Am,
I Love Who I Love,
Nobody Can Stop That,
Everyone Can Judge Me But I Know The Truth,
Right Now I Just Want It To End,
I Want To Be Able To Say The Words That Need To Be Spoken,
But I Sit In Silence,
Freezing Up Everytime,
How Can I Make It Through This,
I Love Another,
But I Love Him To,
Is It Possible To Even Have That,
Should I Deserve To Be Happy,
Should I Deserve To Live Life,
I Cant Seem To Feel Nothing But A Tear Fall From My Blue Eyes,
I Want To End It,
But I Cant,
Theres Just Someting Missing,
I Dont Know What It Is,
But Im Hoping To Find It,
Soon It Will Be Visible,
Soon I Will Get Noticed,
Soon This Pain Will End,
I Want A Happy Start And A Happy Ending,
But Fairytales Are Lies,
Nothing Like That Will Ever Happen,
Or Will It,
So Thoughtful,
So Caring,
Does Anyone Realize The Real Me,
Do I Have A Chance To Show It,
All I Want Is For Him To Know I Care And I'll Always Be There,
I Have Regrets,
Your Not In That Category,
But To Let You Know,
Yes I Still Love You