Confession Of Conscience, Flowers In Flames 2nd Edition Poem by Matloob Bokhari

POEM TITLE: CONFESSION OF CONSCIENCE
POET: MATLOOB BOKHAI
COUNTRY: PAKISTAN



I always had a close walk with Allah

Boasting in Him all the day long
Claiming my limited interest in mundane world
Making noise of my love for All -Love
My piety, my worship and good works.
Competing with the pious in their piety
Not competing with sinners in repentance.
While I was boasting like a barren tree,
Lifting my head high in empty pride;

On the way, I met Apate, in the shadow of night
A lady of wily mind; with wily snares and wily words,
I was carried away by her deceiving beauty
In the magical night sky,

She sang tale of love that took me in a fantasy world.
"Come on in now, come on in now
Come on in now, come on in now

My warm love like the evening sun will always shine on you."
Making promises, she said in the air castle in the hills of forest green"

"I promise you with the moon
I promise you with the star
I promise I would never cause you pain
I will consciously and deliberately remain loyal
O love of my life
With all my heart, I love you
I will love you forever, forever every single day."
Her kisses, her hugs, her warmth made me to forget everything
I forgot everything, I forgot the abundance of God's gifts
I forgot the miracles He performed in my life
Late at velvety night, when the sky grew darker
She put her lily white hands on my eyes
She vanished saying: "I am like a star.
Sometimes you will see me
Sometimes you cannot see me."
When I opened my eyes
The dark curtain of clouds like a huge mountain Had covered all the stars, made sky a black sea
Left me in loneliness, misery and suffering
Walking on the lonely road, I cried:
"Can anyone hear me. I am all by myself
Loneliness is more painful than cancer."
In the shadow of darkness,
Came the voice of Merciful and the Gracious Light


In the profound melody of silence


"O noise maker

Truthful words are not boastful words
Boastful words are not truthful words
I am here, I love you, I will stay with you
Draw near to me, I will draw near to you
Love me in the silence of your heart."
Whispered God in my heart softly
I looked back on His kindness


I felt sad, I felt regret, I felt remorse






Confessed my sins, asked His forgiveness and screamed:

"Unbearable is to bear the agonizing pain of remorse,
Unbearable is to bear the terrible pain of regret
I felt sad, I wept, I cried in grief with a broken heart
My boiling hot tears cleared my path
To walk in silence on the path of Allah