Crash. Poem by Kim Dang

The sky rotates and I crash down,
Stuck between a rock and a hard place,
it's dark out.
And the voices which calls to me are states away,
I wail back telling them I wish I'd stayed.

A knot wrought into a complicated mess has
lodged permanently into my chest, and
it seems utterly godamn hopeless.
To untie this tie dye of separate colors.
I am looking into your brown eyes, to realize
that I've lost my lover.

What has been replaced is someone struggling
to even learn how to love me.
While you're stabbing my back and
I'm down on my two knees.

Chronologically you practice sex before neglect,
Afterwards I'll turn to moisten my pillows
This is not what I'm supposed to feel, I feel woes
For a future uncertain, I've held back time for this
certain someone.
Oh god what have I done.

There was hope in being single, when life wasn't
intermingled with wrenching compromises
While I die everyday a little inside and
While you are more desensitized everytime I cry
these real tears.

Everything is blurry as I consume more than just a few beers.
Today feels much different than last new year's.