Death Hovering Above You Poem by Nick Kler

When you are abused as a child
It makes you feel worthless and impure
Nothing, but a compulsive liar
A shadow of darkness
In their pure and truthful world

Never allowed
to have any friends
You are never
To leave home alone

Every day brings with it
Brand new implications
A thief, a swindler
A shame to their inflatable ego

As and when you turn 18
Somehow, you managed to fly
A million miles away from them
In a hope for a brand new start

There you meet your future wife
With her you'll spend
25 years of your eventful life

With her, you think
You could make a tiny eternity
A few years went by
She starts to moan and groan

Always complaining
About little imperfections
She finds in you
Every friend of yours
Is either a scum or a loser

They are never allowed
To enter your home

Slowly but surely
You start to distant yourself
Away from her
As she starts to act
More like a mother
then a wife

Life that you had left behind
Was surely catching up with you
She started to call you
An alcoholic, an addict
You are a perfect loser
Incapable to love
and not her future

Still, you cater to her every need
Always provide for her
A life of luxury
A life of lies

Paid for her parent's trips
To come visit her country
Yet,
She's never there
in your hour of need

Times that you are dying
All alone in a hospital bed
It is your friends
That take care of you

Every time you get stuck
in some unforeseen circumstance
She managed to distant herself
Along with her sadness and her friends

Days you were angry and mad
Yes, you argued and you complained
But never did you ever touch her

Instead, you took off
Into the arms of
Dark n empty streets

You suggested her to leave
To go n get a divorce
Cause you never had the strength
To sign the dotted line

Whatever she was
She was your one and only
Left in this deceptive world

Yes, you become reckless
You never took care of yourself
Somehow, you wanted to drown
Your loneliness and your sorrows
Within the realms of drugs and alcohol

So, you went on these binges
For nights on end
So out of love
Looking for a gentle cress
on every street corner

Within dark and filthy dungeons
Most expensive bars
Parties of the stars
Million-dollar homes
never felt like a home

It was only after a gift
That God sent just for you
Birth of your only daughter

Your life started to make sense
You were happy once again
And forgot all about the past
And started to enjoy the moments of bliss

Only a few months had gone by
One dark and deceptive night
While her mother was visiting
She decided to call 911

No shirt or shoes on you
No money in your pocket,
just in shorts
You are thrown behind bars
'But officer, what did I do?
Oh! I know of your kind
Gentle and evil at the same time
You have been hitting n abusing your wife'

Its a friend of yours
That bails you out
At 4 in the morning

You're thrown on the streets
With no money or shoes
Where would you go?

She takes out a restraining order
now you're not allowed
within a 1000 Ft of your home

After some time
Deep within this commotion
While still supporting her finically
You accept her apology
And move back into your home
A sacrifice just for your daughter

She finally started to feel guilty
After 25 years of togetherness
One strange, vicious night
She decides to leave you,
Taking the whole house with her

She took away your only daughter,
That you loved more than your life
And disappears into the darkness
You're left alone to die

Now that she is all grown up
Days of cuddling are long gone
You have missed out
most of her childhood days

Little things that are said and done
Most precious moments of life

She is all grown up now
Days of cuddling are long gone
In this deceptive world of time
Passing every moment
As if it were a lifetime

Death hovering above you
Underneath is your life