Decadence To Dependence Poem by NikMorgan ...

At first
It was good
Being bad
Weekends full of recreational excesses
Pills and parties
Sniff and spiffs
Happy daze
Sweaty sleepless nights
Life was a game
I played hard
The rules of the game changed
I played harder still
Weekends became weeks on end
I was a fearless explorer
A space cadet
Guinea pig of necessity
Misplacing friends and family on the way
I found that needle in a haystack
Struck numb by sweet oblivion
One taste was never enough
I gained an appetite for self destruction
A cruel cold mistress
Taking more than I could give
Taking all I had
All I own is this monkey on my back
A strange and terrible compulsion
The face in the mirror watches me with contempt
I can not look myself in the eye
I need a shot of redemption
That is all that matters
That is all there is