Depression Poem by Andrew Olson

my parents said they love me,
they would love me no matter what
i know that they love me, their son

they love me but they will never
accept me for who i am inside

they searched my room
they took my cellphone
they checked my computer

they found out i am gay
they found out about my boyfriend
they havent treated me the same since
they dont trust me anymore
deep down they hate who i am

my once happy life turned into a living nightmare

they bought books on having a gay son
they asked if i wanted to go to counseling
they have unreasonable fears for me
like getting beat up by the football team for fun

the older generations of my family would disown me
my parents think they are doing good to just not send
me away to military school

i know my life will be more difficult because of this
they think i will die sad and alone

sometimes they make me feel like i dont belong in this world