Disappointment Poem by Eva Clara Harahap

Before I came out of my mother womb…
I wish someone could tell me what the real world is…
Angel with angry eyes is not angel…
Demons with gentle voices is still demons…
At first glance, Ugly faces with golden heart is still ugly faces…

I trust the words from a deaf man…
He told me, the world is silent…
As silent as the kind nature…
No one gives order to the nature….
It has its own precise law…
That good sit side by side with bad…
Always good wins over bad….
I did not know, He never heard the devil voice…
Otherwise, he will tell me differently…

I see things from a blind man…
He told me, the world is black…
Never grey, nor white, or red….
I don’t believe him, I said…
The world is mountains, oceans, and uncountable stars..
The infinite stars reflected my dreams, I said proudly…
He told me wisely, dream is a spring for him..
He could only wish to see it….

I believe the wise man words …
He told me, the wonders of this world are beyond description…
What are you doing living in a dark and black prison? ...
Come out of the womb with me, conquer the world....
The womb world is all the embryo knows…
Amazing tales waits in every end of the rainbow…
He persuaded me impressively…..

One day you will be glad, You were born in this world…
You’ll mark every stone you passed…
You’ll say “finding the truth about yourself is not impossible”…
You’ll laugh as much as you cry…
You dance as much as you can..

Every sadness and sickness is nothing but a bad dream…
It gives colors to life….
Nightmare is nothing but flowers in the rain…
It helps to clear out some dust of life…
It makes the flower reach its full blossom…

Then I believe him…
I came out to this world….
Then he disappeared, I left alone….
I still meet angel with angry eyes…
Demons with gentle voices…
Ugly faces is still ugly faces…
I failed to find the golden heart….

The wise man never told me…
None of those are a bad dream….
It is my real world, the world he persuaded me to enter…
Now I believe the blind man words…
The wonderful world is like a spring for me…
I could only wish to see it….

Copyright © Eva Clara Harahap May 2009