Don't Be Envious Poem by Minerva Agriam

My life is not made up of fantasy.
I am normal, I lived in reality.

My parents took great care of me,
Coz I was nearly miscarriaged while
Just a tiny fetus inside the womb of my mother.

But fate or luck took hold of me,
And I came to see life here on earth.

The olden people said elves befriended me,
Coz I played around and ran by myself;
Doing my own things as I grew.

My childhood days were carefree,
Having lots of fun around luscious verdant farms.

They said I was the lucky charm,
Coz as I came, the farms bore
Lush fruits and gave good harvests.

But my life wasn't to be all fun,
I have to obey and make a future set by my parents.

Off I go to the big city and attend
A course for my parents dream-
My purgatory; in silence I obeyed.

I became impatient, fidgety,
Feeling like the world had given its load to me.

With regrets for not having courage
To stand for my own dream;
I came to have the degree anyway.

Exercising what had I attained,
Made me feel the world was so much tricky.

Goodness! The world is full of schemes!
White lies or dark; no one is honest enough!
You have to adopt, and go with the flow.

I felt being burned by the flow,
I hated the feeling of going with the flow!

Mal adjusted, discontented; I recoiled and hid
In a world of hapless things; I didn't had happiness
With lifeless things anyway, I gave them away.

Coz I heard a soft voice calling me,
For the hidden life in the monastery.

Being new, I prayed beautifully,
But I did nothing but sleep like a baby!
So the Superior made me try the world again.

I had let the tricky world moved me!
I think I swam with the flow!

I tried to fit in the world of schemes.
Like a lamb, I fall and got hurted;
But never lost hope to find my own dream.

Without anything to support my quest
To find my dream, I felt lost!

Whence, I lifted my little fist
And questioned God, 'Why so hard on me?
I am nothing, You're so great? '

Tears of regrets flowed,
For my dream so far for me to reach!

For years I bore the pains
Of my mal adjusted nerves,
As stress set my frail health on fire!

So I say to all or anyone,
Please don't be envious of me,
As I heard whispers Im lucky?

I heard them saying,
I had been given a nice life.

Yes, life is always nice.
Life that is simple and
In accordance with what you have is nice.

But here I am feeling my pains so great,
They overwhelmed me, I felt being swayed!

As I laid and waited for the Medics,
I questioned myself, 'What am I doing here? '
Then I remembered my pains.

Tears flowed down my cheeks,
Then smiled at my friends helping me, so sweetly.

At my most needy situations
Only my friends are there, when my
Kins sweared they are the only ones to help me.

Realizing this, I was greatly touched
By how Love manifested Itself freely.

I received nothing but love,
I gave nothing to my friends.
I enjoyed being here!

So this is life! Free but sharing, Nothing but full of meanings. I learned my lessons well!

So don't be envious of me! I lived my life in pains you wouldn't want to experience!

But through my pains I learned the love, Peace and wisdom of God suffering
Hanging on the cross to save humanity.

Please don't be envious of me, I have to live my life in simplicity.

(1/08/17. 9: 45 p.m)

'Don't Be Envious'