Don'T Let Me Need You.. Don'T Make Me Miss You Poem by Eman Awad

All of my dreams aren't how i desired,
my recent dream was that i am lost and alone.
I say, i'm used to it though i got tired,
but my only hope is to just stay put at home.
I'm lost but i do find my way,
i'm alone but i have me and it's enough.
Don't say you're here to stay,
don't look into my eyes and mention love.
I'm quite empty, so is my poem,
i don't know where i end or when i started.
I got used to being on my own,
i wipe my own tear when i'm broken hearted.
Starting my day with a forced smile,
and i've nothing left for me to cry on.
It's all done after a forever while,
but even forever ends and begins at dawn.
And when you come from no where,
and my heart beats for you, i feared to death.
For i've felt that you really care,
would you believe that i cared too, i confess.
And that not allowed, i'm not up for it,
i'm wounded, and the last scar i got was yesterday.
I tried to dodge them, i'm not in for it,
when they tell me the very reason why he went away.
I couldn't stop him and years went by,
and still i can never get over my loss.
Some thing is missing in me and i try,
but some one had to pay the unjust cost.
You have some thing i long for,
some thing that would really complete me.
You are like i've never seen before,
and if i knew that and still escape, forgive me.
I can't make you happy for i'm not,
and i can't make you fall in love with all this.
Happiness is what i've wished for and never got,
and you're so beautiful to fall into this darkness.
I thought that telling you this is fair,
would you please, don't let me need you? ?
I'd die the day i wake up and you're not there,
the story of my life, don't make me miss you.