Empty Space Poem by juliet sinclarie

I made a choice I will never forget that day.
I will remember March 29th always.
The day I chose to have you killed.
I would do anything to have you back here.
A mother suppose to protect and nurture their unborn.
I feel empty like my soul has been torn.
If only I could change the past.
To have you here in my arms.
I was so young and afraid
I know I just killed my blessing.
All I feel is sadness and pain.
I listen to a coward who wasn't ready for one.
Angel, it was your father, he wanted to run.
He wasn't ready and still wanted to have fun.
I should have put you number one.
You would have been here.
I would have been a mother and sung.
Please Lord forgive me for what I done.
I hope to see my angel in heaven.
I feel terrible and have learned my lesson
In life I am miserable and stressing.
I feel so guilty all I do is cry.
I am so alone, depressed, and at times wish I could die.
Why did I have to take your precious life?
You were my first and only pregnancy.
Everyday you were growing in my belly.
I was scared, poor, and didn't have any help.
Your father who help make you was in fear.
All he did was talk about child support checks.
I am the one to blame for all of this I am in tears.
I was all by myself and no one seem to care
I thought abortion would be the very best.
Now that decision has made me suffer with many regrets.
Trials and tribulations in life oh this is such a bad test.
Why life haft to be so unfair?
This is what I'm going to have to face with everyday.
I will never have peace until I go in my grave.
I will love you my angel always.
I just wish I could make this curse feeling go away.
The never ending feeling of EMPTY SPACE...