Expectations Poem by David Knox

Are you waiting for me?
Am I waiting for you?
I hope you are not denying yourself happiness for my sake
I think at one time I loved you, I Think you might have loved me too
Unlike all the other girls, ideas of girls too
You were, you are different in so many ways and I don't think
That it was one-sided, when I think about you my heart does not sink
That was many years ago. Yet it feels fresh
But do you love me now? Do you wish that I would wait for you
Not seek love in other places, because I've found you...
Do I want that from you? Is that fair?
It's weird you aren't that far away- we could see each other
I think we want to, but we just don't
I don't know what to do, if I love another woman I would be crushed
If I learned you were still waiting there for me
Should we talk about this?
Can we talk about this?
What if there is no this
What if you didn't love me
Or you aren't waiting
Would it matter I'm waiting for you?
I'm not good at waiting I already have other crushes
Is that disloyal? unloving to you?
Does it matter?
Would it matter?
What do you expect of me and what do I expect of you
I don't want to wait forever
I don't want you to wait forever
I don't even know if you ever loved me.
Even if you read this would you know it is you?
I wish I could ask you about our expectations and who's waiting
I want to
But I don't know of I can deal with the answer
Yes or no they are both devastating
What then shall I do?
What will I do?
What am I gonna do?
Am I waiting for you?