Feelings Are Not Present Poem by mona martinez

How do you explain how you feel inside,
when you start to express yourself,
and the feeling is stripped from your mind,
sometimes it is unfair,
that you can't have the little moments,
that keep you happy in life,
because when you do,
they don't last,
I guess it like if you can't put up with the bad,
than you don't need the good in your life either,
you feel a sense of hollowness and numbness,
it like you don't own your feelings,
but instead belong to somebody else,
and you are borrowing them,
just to feel something in life,
it not a pleasant feeling,
you might think it is,
cause you don't remember the bad,
but when you can't remember the good,
and you don't recall certain feelings,
it take to feel human,
your world start to become dull,
and unpleasant to live,
it feels unfair to live a life,
where you have the movie replaying in your mind,
but what a movie,
without the sound,
it what helps you feel,
putting mute on a movie,
hides all of the feeling.
02-16-13