Fly In The Wall Poem by Rae Carroll

Why can’t I
Be like a fly
Squished so easily
Wished away, so measly
What is the difference between me and you
Is that different in me to?
Can it be seen?
Can it be touched?
What does it mean?
Does it count that much
Why is it here
What does it want?
All I see is a mirror
A reflection that haunts
But now you are gone
Like you were before
I waited too long
I needed more
Time; to what?
To heal, to see
To look down deep inside of me
It wasn’t what I saw
It was what I felt
The ice inside me had stated to melt
Dripping off my beating heart
Leaving it open, alive and free
Helping me wait for you so happily
I hear it now, your coming back
Everything’s great until the splat
Of the fly hitting the wall
With that sound you’ve ended it all
The ice has grown back and I’m starting to fall
No more different
Than I was before
Now indifferent
Like I was before