Seems I have that PTSD bit
As was diagnosed by the VA
Thought I'd write a poem about it
Will try to focus today
This may have a negative tone
Just want to say before I start
I now have a stone
Where I once had a heart
Did my job well in that damn war
Thought I was a hero
Don't know what I fought for
Turned out I was a zero
Didn't know how to cope
So I decided to run
Chose not to use dope
If I'd chosen food I'd weigh a ton
Rarely get any good rest
Cause pain meds keep me flying
Even though I know it's not best
Cause there's things worse than dying
Afraid of having nightmares
Have them most every night
Am I the only one who cares
Sometimes I even fight
Don't meet with friends anymore
Can't follow their conversation
Hardly walk out the door
Just don't have the motivation
'Join a gym' my doctor said
'You won't feel so down'
Seldom crawl out of bed
Much less drive into town
Docs ask if I think about suicide
What sort of question is that
My moods change like the tide
And at the drop of a hat
Don't know where all this is taking me
Hope it's not here to stay
A year from now where will I be
Please God, just get me through today
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem