Frightened Realization Poem by Allysyn Bryant

Never would've known if not for today
My Ex... he's frightened me today
I cried for him, feeling the tears
It was then I realized I still care for him
In 3rd Period, something happened
He was in class, Auto class I think
Something exploed, he was hurt
Me, on the other end of campus, I wasn't told
Not until lunch two hours later
My Ex, he was hurt bad, sent to the hospital
To one hospital and airlifted to another
With snitches in his neck, I've been told
That he'll be home tonight
I cried in relief, able to breathe again

Never did I truly knmow until today
How much he means to me
Scared I'd lose him, I love him
Not in the way I did before but still
He's my friend, i love him
I don't wanna lose him, our friendship
Realizing how he's involved in my life
I know, in a way, I need him
He's there to make me smile
When there's no one else to
He's there to make me feel safe
When I'm so scared I can't sleep
He's there for me
When I meed a friend most

A smiling face. A good laugh. A great friend.
He's there more then I give him credit for
That day, when my family turned on me
Then again, when I watched my brother leave
At the park, when I just needed a hug
On my 16th birthday, when it meant most
That night,2: 30am, I needed to cry
Seems he knows what to say for me, to me
He knows me more then most around me do
He's seen what me family's like
He knows who I am

So tomorrow afterschool
I'll be at his door knocking
Just so he knows I care, to show him that I still do.

March 4,2009