Hanging There With A Smile On Me Now Poem by jesica reeder

why am i living
why cant i die
everyone hates me
out to get me
theres many ways o die
why dont they work?
i cut the rope
its long and firm
i pull the noose tight around my head
step off the chair and stat still
thinking back when someone cared
when people loved and adored
why not now?
my mind drifts off
my soul leaves my body
nothing but a fake smile on me now
he laughs at me
that dead little boy
david laughs and screams
the final breath until....