Hard Happiness Poem by Laura arwen

I don't have
a complete sense
of happiness
Many times I
think happiness doesn't
belong to me
I hesitate to
feel it
Probably I don't
conquer fully the
happiness
It isn't the
best imagine and
feeling I have
It's an unfamiliar
feeling to me
I think in
this life I
don't reach it
For me it's
not a big
tragedy to lose
it
I'm very happy
to control little
things
I don't have
any reason to
obtain it
We pretend to
have it daily
I'm not so
optimistic to establish
a connection with
it
In the future
I need it
For me it's
really hard to
accept it
In this moment
I don't find
it essential for
my life
Probably it could
be a relevant
feeling of my
life
We lost the
pure happiness