im sorry
for everything i cant be
and im sorry for
not letting him fully see
i know im hurting him now
because my self pride
but its killing me
starting from the inside
but love is what
my guared heart cannot give
he wants a dream
im too afraid to live
i want to
give him all i cant
so i'll work hard
and let us shine through
yet the possiblity of him
to me it scares
because i know a heart
rips and tares
i dont want to feel a pain
ive once felt
and i dont want to deal
the pain hes had dealt
yet my heart has gone back
to immature stages
so i dont want to gamble it
as my major wages
plus theres much of me
he dont know
a past life
ive had to let go
but these are things
i cant explain
only that the people who were suppsed to love
only caused me pain
and why not to fall in love
i have my reasons why
but to control an unattainable heart
it will be hard to even try
he say your in love
but how could he possibly know
with all the emotions possible
how could it be love in tow
i'll listen intently
but give no reply
i'll even attempt
not to roll my eyes
because when he says he loves me
i want to give in
but then i remember
the way love has been
because ive slipped off the diving board
in which i was teasing
trying to keep my heart taimed
to keep it from unleashing
cause once i hit the wather
all hell will occur
and i know in him i'll drown
him being my anchor
or its like a swing
flying up and soaring down
teasing the sky like love
with feet ready to touch the ground
but im losing grip
of what i once held tight
im slipping from the seat
but theres no time to fall in love tonight
but the ways he is
will draw me in
and the combination to my heart
will be a useless pin
plus when we're together
its impossible to sleep
because i want every possible moment
to be a memory to keep
his heart is scrotching hot
and im just melting ice
my armor is being destroyed
and falling in love is the price
because i know
if injuries ever follow
a fall such as this
in my sadness i'd wallow
but im learning
the falling is fine
as long as he stays
to be mine
i guess the words
im trying to say
are exactly the words
i push away
at any rate
my heart has come to win
because im too late
and already love him
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
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