How I Wish Poem by Julia Pascual

As my days pass by...
You're still on my mind...
How easy for me to say goodbye...
But I say those things with teary eyes...

Though I forced myself to forget...
My heart won't allow me to...
Yes, you were the reason I smiled...
But you were also the reason I cried...

It wasn't easy to pretend...
Pretend that I'm doing fine...
And still showing a happy face...
When all I wanted was to die...

How I wish I could turn back time...
Rewind it when we were still there...
Go back when you and I collided...
Back when we were 'us'...

How I wish I could be your wall...
So that you'd have someone to lean on...
Or maybe I could be your pillow...
For you to rest on while you sleep...

But wishing won't do me anything...
I could never turn back time...
It'll just give me false hopes...
Dreaming you'd be mine...

So maybe it's time to wake up...
And start to face the consequences...
I've made the wrong decision...
And take in my retribution...

My punishment has never been this hard...
It's really hard for me to bear and stand...
Though it might take a lifetime to get over with...
It would be better to accept that you're gone...