How Much I Wanted You Poem by Niken Kusuma Wardani

If you asked me
How much I wanted you
Let you choose
Between this two mask
Which one
You would buy
Because both
Represent fire
That burn for you
In different way

Let me put this evil mask
I would announce
Unto the world of Zeus & Hades
That You are mine
Nobody
Even your soulmate
Would ever found you
I would consume you
'Till I got infected
By your poisonous lust
I creep to your being
And get obsessed
By your incessant desire

Let see when I wear this halo
I would condemn
My A to Z excuse
To have you
Never
Even in my dying day
Did I ever wish to reach you
I would curse
My heart to stone
If it ever beat for you
I would deny
My own soul
If it foster your shadow

It's merely
A battle of the fool
To claim a trophy
Of other's winner
This unceasing war
Between evil and angel
Had me as a sole victim
So let you pick
Your own answer
Of how much I wanted you