I Am Afraid Of........ Poem by lalitha iyer

I make no friends
I am afraid of losing;
either they take leave of me
when they leave the place
or they are forced to leave
when they leave the space

I can't feel the dead home's air
the beating upon the breast
the burning of the groans
the leaking of the eyes
and the limping of the minds

I can't stand the burning pyre
i can feel the pain of the dead one dear
i can touch the heart of passions
and i am pinched by the lost world of emotions

I am afraid of parting and good byes
for who knows whether we could meet again
I pocket the memories of past and present
and in sadness exchange them like coins to fund

in depressive moods I lose my mind
and cut off from reality be a baby blind
soaked with sudden moods of gloom I loom
I am afraid of making love, lest loved ones haunt me soon.