I Can'T Hurt You Anymore... Poem by Amber Zitzloff

I am overwhelmed with sadness as I watch you walk away.
Even though I know you’ll be there when I wake.
I feel the tears run down my face.
And the loneliness becomes my favorite place.
There’s not comfort here anymore.
My body feels so out of place in this world of amazing grace.
No longer am I feeling safe.
Left out from my thoughts that race.
As I lay in bed at night I cry myself to sleep.
I wake up in a massive heap.
My head is throbbing from everything I keep.
It’s like a funnel draining down.
Starting at my head and working its way around,
Until the life is gone from my body.
I lie there on the floor trying to think of a way to not believe you anymore.
All things you've done for me I need to give away.
The kindness and the friendship you gave me,
Is nothing short of a home for me to stay.
I cannot stand hurting you while I pretend to feel.
Please forgive me for what I‘ve done,
And remember you kept me from my hurt inside and that should feel real.