Overwhelmed by impatience; reading letters
from him, time has stopped, minutes take hours
and hours take ages to pass, I can’t wait anymore,
I can’t stand the noise of the clock and the sound
of my nieces’ voices, I can’t listen to uncle slurping
tea and music from the TV, I can’t wait for the sun
to rise and then to set again; I can’t listen to mouths
chewing and footsteps in the passage; I can’t stand
calls to the dogs and trucks coming and going; I
can’t stand lights switching on and the moon rising;
I can’t stand preparing meals and then eating then
cleaning; I’ve passed my ability to be calm and
content; I can’t wait any more; I can’t remain in
my skull; I can’t be me anymore, can’t sit quietly,
can’t listen to my own thoughts; all that remains
to break this chain suffocating me, tightening
around my neck, is to cry; all I can do is seek relief
in tears; abandoning myself to sobbing away my
grief and my fears; I’m growing hysterical – I can’t
wait anymore, I can’t wait, I can’t and I won’t and
I need to get away; to run to a place where I can be
alone and the silence is complete; I need to conjure
a vision of his face and meet him in my dreams;
I can’t breathe and live on; I’m going to run and
run and run until it is quiet and I’m on my own;
please let me see him again, please bring him to
me, please; I’m going mad with impatience, please,
I need to be with him, I cannot live without him…
I completely got a sense of how you feeling with this one. What an impactful poem. Can feel your Anxiety and emotion so powerfully in this poem.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
The sense of longing is very sad... Great poem... Colin J...