I Feel Like I Need You Poem by Eman Awad

But no matter how hard i try,
a feeling of needing you still remain.
I never told you that you were the only thing,
that went well, in this mess called my life.
My happiness was only when my phone ring,
when i hear your voice i know i'll survive.
But you choose to let go of me,
you never stood by me when i needed you the most.
Like you've already decided to leave me,
you're the first to leave and my tears were the cost.
I needed to feel that some one,
cared just to take care of me, never to leave.
Some one who would defy every one,
for me and admit that -in me- he can believe.
Some one who cares not,
if i'm beautiful for i am always this way for him.
Some one who knows what i got,
and asks for no more but my eyes he drowns in them.
Some one who is simply in love,
with all that's about me, and needs me so.
Some one who finds it impossible enough,
to live again if i ever decided to let him go.
But this some one was never you,
and yet i feel like i need you some times.
I still can't believe it's true,
my poems of love have marvelous rhymes.
When i stare away for a while,
i remember your sweet words and get hurt.
And mostly when i linger your smile,
i wish that my presence is erased from this world.
This devoted some one was me,
always me, so lost for being with you.
Why did you have to leave me,
why did you have to be so untrue? ?
But since you are the first love in my life,
i still feel like i need you even if i'm in pain.
Because, for your smile only i was alive,
and for your acts only i felt insane..
So much for a love story, all are lies,
like i fell in darkness but i hoped for a light.
I feel decieved when i linger the look in your eyes,
i knew the end started with the start,
but i was despairdly looking for hope in sight....