I'M Afraid... Poem by Erica Lee

I'm afraid
I'm afraid of everything
I'm afraid that I just don't have any courage or guts left in me
All I have is the feeling of fear
That's it and I... I can't change

I'm afraid if everybody that's close to me dying in front of my eyes
All I can do was just look at them hopelessly
They're dying but I did nothing
Because I couldn't
I wanted to give them my time
But I don't want to leave this world

I'm afraid of being betrayed
The feeling of losing trust of one person is something I don't want to feel more than once
I treasured that person
But behind my back, they deceived me
They thought I would let it go
But I didn't

I'm afraid of being lonely
I have nobody to be with
I have nobody to talk with
All I know is that people can't defeat loneliness on their own

I was lonely
I was with a bad person
But I didn't mind
Because I had somebody to be with
That evil person was the only I could be with
But that person never deceived me
And I never deceived that person.