I'M Sorry Poem by Guarded Heart

Forgive me please
If lately, i havn't seemed myself
To much on one mind
Only yesterday i wrote of happy things
I was delighted to see you
Be held by you, be loved by you
I try not to let her stand in the way
I keep pushing her back
And yet she resurfaces
I'm frightened by what she does to me
What she turns me into
Someone with the desire to kill
I can't believe the things i just wrote
In my previous poems
How guilty i feel
I lie here now and cry alone
The monster she made is gone now
And i stand back in her place
I swear its me, don't be afraid please
I feel the hatred draining away
And my usual smile in its place
But i can't take back the angry things i said
I don't feel its right to apologize for my words
I'm only sorry that for a temporary moment
That i became a monster