I Sit Here Sometimes... Poem by chantelle ribeiro

I sit here sometimes
staring at a blank page
frustration building up inside
So much to say
yet the words escape me
Tonight is no different
There is a sadness in my soul
Where it originates from,
I do not know why or how or how long
Suddenly the riverbank breaks
A flood of tears
A little earthquake
The darkness nears
no one can see
this hole growing inside of me
I want to scream
Yet I make no sound
what is this beast that has me bound?
I guess it happens
A melancholy moment
where silence lives
Born from just being human
From being there for others
You push yourself to the edge
It is hard keeping people motivated
When sometimes you need it more,
but delay it
Then after I write what I feel inside
I feel better
Cleansing the soul
Seeing things in perspective
I know my calling and I I know I can't hide
Even if it sometimes feels no one's on my side
I have to smile and be that friend
To those I love to the very end
And one day when I reach the end of living
I can say that it all was worthwhile giving
Just to know I made one person smile
That I made a difference for a while