I thought you cared enough
Foolish of me, haha
I thought deep down you accepted me
That no matter what, there was love
That I wouldn't disgrace you
Just over something so small
Or that I wouldn't disappoint you
For being who I am, being myself
But no I was wrong, I guess
In the end everyone is the same
Wearing the same fake faces
Telling me lies just to cover the dirt
Really deep down you just
Want me to change
To be like all the rest
To hate who I am and alter it
To be a dim-witted robot
And have no more soul in me
To be your ideal vision of me
The one that can't exist
Can't exist because I am myself,
Not some golden angel from heaven;
I suppose you don't want me to write too
You hate that I show my feelings
You would rather I just pretended
To be happy, like a puppet
Telling me it is alright,
Telling me you loved me no matter what
Then when the lies disappear
And the truth is revealed
Then what, what is your next game
How will you toy with me now;
I come home, and although I may
Not always seem it
I look forward to open arms
And company of loved ones
A place where, once I believed
I would not be judged like this
Where I felt safe
To be myself, to live
But now that is broken,
I know behind the words are secrets
And with those the mirror shatters
Into a million pieces
And I am left here, wondering
Why
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem