I Thought I Might (2008) Poem by Butch Decatoria

i let you foretell forever
in your footloose fluent flow
inside your killjoy kiss
and i fuse your dream into
my hips and this hoax

i do not feel relief
when i apologize
i cannot repair those reptile lies
i do not love you
i thought i might...

i let you sacrifice
your sphinx and spice
your stage, your trust
and i teach myself your tambourine song
capricious, shake, then silence

i do not weep or even hurt
i cannot share your loss

i do not love -damned i am
i cannot be your dumpling man

i cannot repair your sordid lies
i do not love you
iwon't apologize...