-i’ve Been Hurting Myself... Poem by Christian Jude Iankefvozuqx Tan Limpangog

© Christian Jude Iankefvozuqx Tan Limpangog

I never thought I will be hurt so much like this
Just this day I found out how much tears I’ve cried
Those lonely days I’ve tried to fly high and be whole again
Those cold nights I’ve whispered my sorrows to the wind
Up to this day pain won’t just leave me all alone to be free

Figuring it out why I can’t be me again is so damn hard
Looking back to the past where I stumble is the worst scenario
So good to fall in love but love never give me its happiness
Love took all of me to let me feel the agony of loving
Sad to say being me needs a change to recover from pain

Now I finally know why I’ve been hurt so bad
So much time I wasted to see myself happy but I was wrong
I continued to love you even though it’s totally unacceptable
I’ve been hurting myself long time ago without knowing why
But it is just you who put thorns in my heart that made me fall so deep
Ever since I fell in love with you it was already you who hurt me unknowingly.