They do not have to see
All pain bothering me
If I only stay here
no more pain and fear
Surviving with loads of pills
Being able to pay all bills
Open my eyes once a day
Close them at night if I may
Unaware of the emptiness
All hope and longings I miss
That big hole that is solely me
what not is can not be
Totally done with therapy
No more past I want to see
Pain tearing me so apart
So many and no way to start
No, do not see all my pains
Screamingly running through my veins
These are all my tears to cry
In loneliness, don't know why
Don't know why…
Really, I don't know why
I know my life is over and done
Still here for my girls and son
Yet there is no real tomorrow
Eaten alive in my land of sorrow
It's me, I eat my soul away
Forgotten pain is here to stay
Never will it leave and die
I've loved unloved, don't know why
I still do
Don't know why
Really, I don't know why
December 6th,2013
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
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