I Wish I Was Numb Poem by Nikki Taboada

I can feel my heart breaking
In half
How could I have been so mistaken..?
How could I have trusted him with my heart?
He never loved me.
That’s why he cheated
This is a different kind of pain (I would gladly take the blows to the stomach instead)

I can feel my heart being torn apart
Into tiny pieces
How could I have been so wrong..?
How could I have trusted him to be faithful?
He only ever loved her.
That’s why he stayed out late with her
I wish I were numb (So that I wouldn’t feel this pain)


“Tell me the truth … please. Are you cheating? ”
“…”
“Why won’t you tell me..? Why won’t you tell me anything? ”
“…I’m not – I’m not cheating”
“Why are you lying to me..? Why won’t you tell me about her..? ”
“…I’m not lying – I l-love you”
“No, no you don’t. She called today…”
“Um… can we talk about this when I get home? ”
“Why – are you with her right now..? Are you? ”
“No! *Beep – beep - beep*”