If I Killed Myself Poem by Patrick Shields

If I choose the wrong path instead of the right
Than you will know that I just couldn't go on any longer
That in the long run I was fighting a losing fight
And I want to apologize to one person for not being stronger

So for the sake of your sanity just forget about me
Because the last thing I wand you to do is cry for my long lost sole
Just focus on that I'm finally at peace that I'm finally free
The depression and constant let downs took its toll

Also for that one person I have some advice for you
Just pretend that I never existed that I was never born
Forget that we ever dated and all the time I said I love you too
Because if you don't I can already promise that your heart will be torn

And you one person I would want you to burn my flesh and bone
I would also request for you please to not follow in my footsteps
Because if I kill myself I want to die all alone
That you could take my ashes Rae and lay me to rest

I know it would be very hard for you to let me go
But you must if you're going to live out the rest of your life in peace
Only you can choose weather to get rid of the pain quickly or slow
If you must cut yourself so be it that will be your release

But just know Rae that none of this was your fault
So please sweetie if you can don't yourself for my suicide
Because I know what I would be doing I am an adult
Again honey no matter how many times I say sorry I'll never again be alive