Inside Poem by Victoria Johnson

My bff is crushing on my long time crush

My happiness crumbles and burns
My heart breaks away
With tears i drown on the inside
Pain is pulling me
Into a cold dark hole

What am i to do
I smile to keep her happy
I lie to make her laugh
I bury my feelings inside

And im starting to wonder
Do i always have to sacrifice myself
Helping everyone with their problems
I can't take my own advice

I can't breathe, i think im going to run out of tears
but they keep coming
There's a gaping hole in my heart
It wont seem to heal
I just want to get away
I want to disappear, dissolve, and disintegrate

I can't stand the stories
it hurts inside
I can't get away
I don't want to hurt her
But it's killing me
Inside