Internal Conflicts Poem by Stella Sisanda Qishi

sometimes i wish i could bleed
my heart out and tell you how i feel
but i fear losing a friend in you
sometimes i wish i could stay
in your mind for the longest time
but i saw you with another woman the other day
sometimes i wonder if you've ever noticed
how i act around you
if you have then i guess you're simply indifferent
i've considered composing you a poem
but due to my slim vocab
i couldn't find the right words to say
it's been difficult differentiating between
a friendship and a romantic relationship
but why can't you feel what i feel?
in my fantasies you've caressed me
in the darkest of times

with all the trouble that i went through
still, you had not a scintilla
of emotions for me
so i'll suppress mine
seeing that loving you
is out of the question