It's Not So Much That I Need But The Feeling Of You Needing Me Poem by Diego Adrian Manriquez

I'm not here to write about how heartbroken I am,
I'm not here to write about how much I still love you,
I'm here to pour out my confessions because this is the only place were I feel I will be heard,
Even if no one is listening,
Sometimes I find myself in the darkest parts of my mind,
No hope on escaping I some how find a way,
Looking past all the negativity I seem to create for myself,
I realized I love what I see,
Why on would I want to make this any harder on me?
Maybe it's because it is what I need,
What I want to feel,
Something to let me know I am not heartless,
Truthfully I am too much of a coward to not care,
I want to feel hopeless only because I like to make myself believe,
No one is really there,
Or could it be true?
It's these kinds of things that rush through my head,
I try to lay to sleep but only memories keep me awake,
Memories I can't erase,
I'd like to forget but I can't,
I'd like to lay in bed and sleep,
But I don't want to get too confortable,
I'm not trying to give up,
But I'm not saying I won't,
I want to get through this,
And it's something I have to so on my own.