Jump Off The Page Poem by melissa fox

I know Ive said too much,
i know the night has grown old
but I cant stop listening
The storm has passed
and now Im rocking in the sea
My words are lost in the tide
You make me feel so small
You make me feel so far
but like a distant star
I simply cannot fall
It seems so cold to look at you
when all I see is loss
I see that youre afraid
But I cant make you see
I tried..oh I tried
I waved my flag all through the night
to no avail
I thought my smile could show you
I thought my words could ease the worry from your face
I thought..I was worth the battle through
My words are lost at sea
though i thought a beacon I could be
Im just another wave
goodbye
It seems so silly to say these things
i look back and I see
when you held me...
you really didnt want to
when you kissed me...
you really didnt want to
But I want to believe
Oh like I believed when I was little
and I looked at the stars
winter never seemed so cold
and my heart so alone
i want to believe in the sunshine you said I was
I want to send those rays
but now I know that theyre not real
So as i rock in this frail ship
I will remember your face
and try so hard
try, not to be sad
This is not where you belong
in words that I cannot say
you belong in my arms
but for now, I will keep you in ink
and I will hope
you jump off the page.