Lately Poem by Dianna Nally

Lately I have felt so alone
Even though you are right beside me
It wasn't always as bad as now
Before it was to a more tolerable degree.

There are times when I feel so unwanted, like
When you look at me, it's like your looking through me
And it makes so many crazy things go through my head like,
When you look at me, is it me that you see?

Oh god, I feel foolish at times for feeling this way
My mind seems to be at battle with my heart.
I know things have been rough, like our finances
And I have always felt I wasn't doing my part.

But from the beginning of our life together
You always wanted me home with the kids
And you would come home so exhausted, totally drained
So tired at times, all we could see were your eye lids.

Now our kid's are grown, and out on their own
I am here to help them with theirs
It's a decision made between you and me
But with the load all on you, sometimes I just get scared.

You involve your self in different hobbies
And this I agree you have earned and deserve
But you bury your self so deeply in these
That my needs are rarely observed.

I'm not as young or as well put together
as I know I once was.
But I'm still the woman you married years ago
All that has changed is my body, as every ones does.

Please give me back the man I married,30 years ago
You don't have to involve me in everything you do
You want your hobbies, that I understand
Something we can do together, is all I am asking of you.




Dianna Nally
7/16/05