Living- Not Natural Anymore Poem by krishna kumar

Though I know I will fail, I tried hard everyday
To sweep all your thoughts far away
And that remained impossible...
Finally, I realised you will be there in my life...
May be up to another girl finds me...
Or may be up to the last second I live...
And as far as you remain in my life...
Neither me nor my life wont be the same one that they used to be...
And it wont be also like the one I wanted it to be...
Like breathing it was not natural anymore...
Like bathing I have made it to be habitual and compulsory...
Living has become something that I force upon myself...
Everyday I wake up and feel hard that I have to live another day...
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