Losing Yourself(Revised) Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

The music drives me,
Into a cationic state.
The numbness slowly fades away.
Trying to forget all the bad.
If only not to lose all the good.

Little by little
A tit for tat
Another broken contract
The water seems a little too murky
I think just maybe I'm too worrisome.

Grind the flint and steel
Create that spark
Make you mark
Because soon it'll be dark
Covered in absolute blackness.

An outer body experience
Astral Projection
Just another reflection
Locked in a mind so deep.

We are our just memories.
They stand all around me
Unabiding.
Some what hypnotizing.

I still try to fight it.
Just kick that dog off
Whose really after my bone?
I rather do this alone.
For its when I'm at my strongest.
I build on it,
Mold it,
Shape it,
Into so many forms.

Like a shadow it follows
But its not to be seen
Unless its by my means
I usually don't give in.
But this time it wins
Stolen by selfish endeavors.

A fool am I.
Till the day I die.
Never question the power of suggestion.
It just works.
Sometimes it's in horrible, and indifferent ways.
So I stay away.
Till I feel like one of the unbroken.

I just can't look back
For all the things I have said
I can't retract
Even more so the way I was acting
Insanity is a plea for pity
All the way down to the nitty gritty
And I can't have that.

For I have what I need
That's my dignity
And it I needs not to be forgiven.