I am lost in what we have
or perhaps not so much
I just can't seem to deny denial
or have the courage to face the trials
the trials of our no longer seen future
and the courage to believe
in hope that I can't muster
I want us to be together
after all this time of course I do
but exactly because of that
that this is so hard on me and you
we have dreamed for so long
but my reality make it impossible to carry on
you know I love you so much
but I'm afraid I am too weak
to meet your expectations
I don't want to disappoint you
I have been fighting for us
but I am being beating by my options
nothing that brings back
happy pictures of our future
so much hopelessness in me
a cynical man I have become
but my love is still a positivity
although we are being hindered
by my pathetic reality
I don't know if youll understand
but I need you to
for better or for worse
this is all I can be and do
© 2016
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem