Lovely Sucide3 Poem by Koti Bri

Walking past them i hear them whispering things only a sinful person would say
feeling as if i was their prey.
Questioning my presence every day
wondering if i should go or stay
wishing i could fade away.
Do i belong? i ask myself
i look different than everybody else,
i act different than ones self.
Everybody here is so pelf
makes one feel suspicious of thy-self.
So alone in this world with nobody to turn to
i just want to run away, you should of knew,
But you couldnt help me because you would always bite of more than you can chew.
Nobody is perfect yes i know
but yet you would always glow.
Im lost
from the smoke i feel exhaust.
I feel like a ghost, so invisible
with feelings so indescribable.
Life feeling so doubtful
heart beating so painful.
Being swallowed by the darkness
giving the pain easy access.
Knowing at this point I'm unsaveable, i put my head into my knees
and there i am in its seize
waiting for its disease
no reason to beg please.
Then i vanish, missing in plain sight
sorry i didnt try to fight.
I guess this is good-bye
just keep your head held high.
I will always be in your heart always
just promise me you will stay.