Mentality Poem by rebekka bear

when you talk
i hear your words
but i don't know what to say
when you look at me
i see your eyes
they peer deep into my soul
when you kiss me
i feel your lips
but there isn't any passion or any sparks
these words i say
you'll never hear
because of all my fear
i cant tell you
i love you
i cant tell you
i need you
because none of it is true
you tell me you love me
you say 'it'll be okay'
but i'm not sure it will be
my head says one thing
my heart another
and at this moment
its my head i'm listening to
because its the one
that wants you
my heart just
wants me to let you go
but if i let you go
i wont have anyone
that loves me
because i wont have you
and if i lost you i wouldn't know what to do
i feel that at this moment you are my lifeline
if i lost you my life would end
so tragic but true
all because i don't love you