My Pain Poem by Tendekai Mugonda

I have tried to be patient but iam sick and tied,
of the same drama.
Sometimes I feel like my life is lifeless like in comma.
I am filled with anger at the same predicaments.
Which always draw me back to my senses.
Yet I like to sink in my own vision and withdraw myself,
from prescribed reality.
It pains me how to live in world eroded its sanity.
In a narrow way which is not crowded, I sometime feel alone.
Pregnant with thoughts yet they want me to kill them,
prematurely for a lump sum.
My existence to some is next to none.
I give them happiness and in return they award me sorrow.
Today I feel empty so that I will be fulfilled tomorrow.

My pain is more severe than deeds of betrayal.
Too much crocodile tears are shed for my denial.
By those who I thought were too close to be near.
They remind me i am still half deaf but strong enough not to shed a tear.
For in my incompleteness the voice of truth I hear.
I don't wish to be someone else because my shoes are custom made.
They mean nothing to you and everything to me,
because they carry my name.
It is my cramp today but my future fame.
This pain is a bitter sweet of exquisite taste.