You still get inside my head
I still think about you like before
I try so hard to push on
Then I realize I need you more
You have a place inside me
And it hurts more than you know
I try to keep it a secret
But then I think it must show
I walked so many roads without you
And kept it all inside
Told myself I must get on with life
But all I did was hide
You were a big part of me
Still I'm unsure what I meant to you
And everyday I keep on
I have to see this through
For you caused me so much pain
But you made me smile
I tell everyone it is ok
But I still find it to be a hard trial
Your memory gets the best of me sometimes
I feel like I am living a lie
Then I remember what I have now
And how for these people I would die
I am not the same person you use to know
I have matured in different ways
I was young and insecure
But my life has changed these days
You had something over me
Now I stand on my own two feet
I want you to know this
For I am not beat
You will always be a part of me
You will always make me feel something strong
But I have to point something out
I was never in the wrong
I know I could have been stronger
I know I could have shown a different side
But I have the right to be me
I'm glad I didn't hide.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem