'No One Will Remember Me' Poem by Andrus Cassian

The components framing the sentences in my mind like trophies
blissfully useless
the verbal speech eminating from my voice, silent as stars
the lyrics under lock and key in my vault of a heart, purposely erased
Stop, oh just stop...the message is sound, authoritative, vivid
Not a growing desire or a loving choice
but now, labeled forbidden, restricted, off limits
The very will to write...(sigh) attacked and lost
like villagers in a Viking raid
Please don't recite Anastasia committed thievary again
please don't confess Anastasia annihilated the only means of getting through the day...
she may as well have reached into my throat, my lungs stealing my breath
A way to depart, say 'I quit'; I refuse to acknowledge its whereabouts
but my ticket to relevance has been forfeited, taken up and given away
my hollow reward for being a lonely narcotic
boring speech in a boring moment
my words so slow, even an infant would sleep peacefully in my arms
The skin I'm in, the muscles I control, the bones I'm allowed to use
denies me the necessity to dramatify my strife
imaginate a personal million man symphony in the heart of one
When I shouted 'I'm done' was it to Anastasia
or did I say it audible enough for only myself to hear
Did I say 'bon voyage' to the very cause of my grief without a parting gift
or did I look at my reflection too late to realize what was missing
It wouldn't leave much room for surprise
I've been left unraveled, unfolded
a pile of laundry forgotten at the foot of the bed
Growing up, growing up sucks
so now I'm just the kid on the balcony humming quietly
'Nobody will ever remember me'